Tale of Life's Ups and Downs
"Right now..I just don't know what wo do. My brother is suffering from a sickness na pabalik-balik, my Dad doesn't know what to to. I'll be taking na my exam in the UPCAT yet I'm not ready..I had a review once and I don't want it wasted. My Mom's income is running low and I just had to choose the things that I should prioritize first."
I noticed that I'd usually cry in front of the altar listening to Hale's "Here Tonight" and cry until 11 pm. Then I'd pray the rosary all alone since my Dad was with my lil bro in my grandpa's house. They took care of him 24/7. He was sick...my lagnat sya. His fever reached 40, ever since he lost on a "dirty" election dun sa school nila. He's only grade 6. Nadaya siya ng opponent nya. He went out cguro sa ulan and got wet. Until nagkafever na siya. It felt bad sa part ko. I cried talaga and I couldn't even study na. It was so hard. I couldn't help but think about what we've been going through. Ang hirap pala ano? Sacrifice the things you like?
I've come up with a plan. I have P60 allowance everyday. I've decided to save P50 and spend P10 for my pamasahe. It was fair enough to get P250 a week. I can pay my Promotional Fee in Taekwondo that's worth P650, in just 2 weeks and a half. I talked to my parents about my idea and they stood blankly. Cguro di lang cla sana'y na tingnan ako na nagtitipid ng pera. I won't stop saving until I got what I wanted.
Taekwondo taught me almost everything...from persevering, and saving. I got deciplined too. It's like in every tournament, I didn't want to lose. Just like life; if I was a loser, I lost na cguro noon pa. I really love this sport. And if my mind and heart says so, the rest will follow. Every penny counts. I don't want to spend a peso tapos ung kinalabasan, wala rin. It's a waste of time...and money. I don't play Ragnarok anymore. I learned it all from my experience with Christian. Since that day that we went on without each other's presence, I was active in school. Until I joined taekwondo because of him, just to let it all out. Good thing nga, we fought ano? Then I met Taekwondo...enjoyed it, found good pals, experienced hardships (and bruises), gained confidence and self-defense. But when the rain started to fall, I wished that could feel nothing. I've never experienced saving upto a value of P650 just for some sort of a sport? Who would've thought that I'd sacrifice and make tipid, just for a sport?! Mula nung mawalan ng trabaho ang Dad ko, nagkawatakwatak na ang mga plano ko. But because of my perseverance, at decipline na itunuro sa akin ng Taekwondo...consider pa ung tulong ng DIYOS...alam ko makakaya ko. For every problem, there's always a corresponding solution. I believed in that old qoute noon pa man. Kung minsan nga lang nakakalimutan ko...at eto pa ang isang qoute na itunuro sa akin ng "Meteor Garden" nung sinabi ni Xi Men; "No one can bring a good man down". Kahit ano pang problema ang bumuhos ay I'm sure andyan lng si GOD sa tabi ko. Hindi Niya ako pababayaan Kahit pa mawala ang mundo, makakaya ko basta't alam ko na andyan SIYA. Gusto ko Siyang maramdaman sa tabi ko. Parang gusto ko na Siyang yakapin, at sabihin sa Kanya..."Lord, tulungan mo po Kami ng pamilya ko." Wala na yata akong ibang malapitan kundi Siya. We always go back to our Creator. Hope ko lang na sana the next time I have pains and guilts mas makakaya ko pa.
And to all my friends who are helping me out...especially kay Mommy Chris, who served as the most Loyal of them all. Even if the whole world is against me, I can still remember her tag as "The Most Loyal Friend" that I had. In my whole life I've never met a friend like her. She would fight for me daw. And I do believe her. She even made me utang sa kanya just for the P200 locker payment sa classroom na ikinagalit ng classmates ko, coz I wasn't able to pay.
Hayy, buhay nga naman. I'm very lucky dahil may natitira pang pag-asa sa akin. Friends too! Swerte ko talaga...Praise the Lord!