I started feeling the money rush when my something happend to my dad just months ago... my parents didn't even tell us what was really with my dad in manila. My brothers and I took a hard time to adjust to some things. They took us to our Lolo's house, and for us it was some good news. It's because we didn't know!

It was after February when I knew that something happened to my Dad. I felt bad after. That was why my Mom had to reach manila and stay there for 3 weeks or so. I got startled then, and I didn't know what to do. I've got no options left but to stop playing RAGNAROK and blogging too. I needed to walk if ever I wanted to save myself a penny for tomorrow. I tell you, it was really hard. I've been living in luxury for the past 15 years, and now...I had to cut our budget wisely for good purposes. My parents were so worried of the gastos I've been having while they were away. That's why they have to leave for the whole day if they should go to Roxas for the "Divine Mercy" and come back at midnight to check if me and my brothers are intact with the rules: limit the gastos.

There was a time when I had to beg my dad for P20 just for my allowance in my taekwondo practice. My Dad had nothing to give me. I got a hold on his wallet and not a single bill was seen. Yes, it was so awful that when I left home I can't help but stare at the skies. I told God, that I couldn't face my problems if HE wasn't there with me. It's a good thing I didn't cry nor drop a tear...just that expression of fear and discontent. It felt hard for me to adjust...way back then, when I was still a computer-game-addictus, I can't help but give the cafes some income. I was there everyday, and sometimes teh whole day. And it wasn't surprising where I'd be if they can't find me. But good thing I joined the National Science Camp of the Dept Ed. I wasn't home for 5 days-which means a five-day-getaway-with-no-raganarok! The truth is, I had trouble asking permission from my parents on joining the camp. Wala kasi kaming pambayad dun sa camp na sinalihan ko, kaya humingi nlng kami ng tulong sa Lolo ko. Good thing pinagbgyan na kami. Naawa na xa cguro sa mga nangyayari sa amin. It was like, I wanted to run away from home just to get away from our money probs. Money was always a priority, pero mas mataas pa rin ang Diyos. Panalangin ko araw araw na sana magkaroon ng himala. I've learned well from my lessons. Pero naniniwala pa rin ako sa isang line ng song ng Simple Plan na "CRAZY", "Money is our first priority, but it doesn't make sense to me"...