"First serious blog ko po ito sana po magiging mabuti din ang kinalabasan nito...sana d masyadong corny o ano pero this is a blog anyway so I'll be saying what I'll be feeling"

How do I start? Hmm...People think of the simplest things about me, and I just don't feel comfortable when they do that. They think of me as the "madaldal hippie" minsan nga nakakainis na nga e. Whats with the LABEL anyway? When actually I've got different personalities. Sometimes they call me as the feeling "die-hard fan" of some hot new artist on TV, when actually I'm just idolizing TV personalities! But I consider those things as really simple and it made me say "that's all? Yun lang?". Why have one LABEL when you can be labelled as an well-rounded chic? I enjoy a lot of things, maybe because I'd like to have lots of talents and lots of work to endure. Daring little me! I do sports; I joined the basketball varsity before do why can't I try Taekwondo next? Or maybe take on Soccer? Yeah I can do that! But I thought about dancing since that was my weakness before...way back when I was in elementary...

I was as shy as a new born baby. I was afraid to show people what I've got. But everytime I try to pop out of my shell, inconsiderate people come consistently laughing at me. Leaving me with embarassment and fear of rejection again. It was about time I've had enough of their stupid pranks and left Iloilo City with all those no-good experiences. But it wasn't that bad at all. If those things never happend I wouldn't be writing my first blog right now. Anyway, when I was leaving for Passi City (component city of Iloilo; where we'll be residing na) I can still remember the first guy who dared to punch me on my arm, ang sakit nga nun! It was like I was hit by some thick board! It really does hurt, that I can even picture out the time he did that, and everytime I do that, it really gets into my nerves like puting cold water to a hot frying pan. He was also one of those guys placing pranks on me.

I've experienced a lot from my previous school. I sometimes tell myself "sablayera!", due to some faults I make. And whatever I do, it scares people out of their wits! I do the craziest things in this world. Extraordinary failures too! Like embarass myself in front of a crowd at a school event. I don't think I can do that again with my new personality. Right now, I've become more reserved but can easily open up with people if given the chance. I talk when I'm told so. I stopped being a blabbermouth and start doing the traditional way: quiet or be quiet...like do I have a choice?

Since the day I was told to control my feelings...I haven't felt more embarassed than ever! The fact that I was so madaldal never came into my senses if my high school classmates haven't told me. I guess some people want things just the way it is because it satisfies them. Like how my classmates from the past were satisfied of my madaldal (not to mention: irritating ang makapal) attitude. They told me once, pero di na sila nagtiyaga na sabihin ng paulit-ulit sa akin, what was up with my ego! I tried my best to tie up my bad habit, at first I thought giving out a word of promise to change my attitude was easy...yet it wasn't.

I've learned a lot of things not only with my experiences from my ex-school but in my new school too-my new family. They showed me the do's and don't's from every problem that they encounter. Although they were medyo madaldal din, they knew their limitations. And even though some of them may act too childish (in fact I even act more mature than they are), I know they would get through every burden. I love my classmates, even if they don't seem to like me that much but I guess showing them my love is enough to show them my unfading gratitude for giving me the most unforgetable change in my life and the chance to discover why it's really great being madaldal...while you're at it (and not to mention your knowing all your limitiations)!